Friday, September 21, 2012

The Good, the Bad and the Ugly....

Where has September gone?  Seriously, it is going to be Fall in just a few days.  This summer has flown by.  I don't know why, but I am having writers block or something and I can't think of anything really witty or charming to say in this post, but I thought I needed to post... so, it's going to be a bunch of random thoughts...Good, Bad and Ugly

The Good:
Several times over the past week or so when I didn't want to go to the gym or track my points... I did it anyway... so whoot whoot!   There was a night last week when I didn't want to go to the gym or my weight watchers meeting but I basically talked myself into going, and then since I had already gone to the gym, I was able to talk myself into going to my weigh in, lost 1.2 pounds... so I am glad I did.  One of the good things as well, is that even though the weight loss has been slow... I am still committed to it and still going to the gym and trying (some days are better than others) to follow the weight watchers plan and track everything... but I'm still here!  Yay!   I just keep thinking that even if I only loose 25 pounds every 8 months, that is still 25 pounds less than I was 8 months ago... so, regardless of how fast or slow it comes off... it's still coming off  so YAY!  Oh, and somebody actually noticed my weight loss and asked if I had been losing weight.. so, that is also exciting and a really good thing.  I also was really proud of myself over the past couple of weeks paying better attention to serving sizes...  I had purchased this very small container (I think like the half pint) of ice cream in my new favorite flavor Black Raspberry Dark Chocolate (it is the Premium Select Brand from Smith's) and instead of just eating the container in one serving, I followed the portion sizes which was 4 servings (very, very small servings) and ate it over a week.  I know, it seems like a stupid thing to be proud of, but to me, it is proof of some of the small changes that I am making on this journey to become healthier and lose weight.

The Bad:
So I am still struggling to figure out how to still be able to eat out with friends, but stay within my weight watchers points.  I don't know why but social eating is a big thing for me and when I am out at a great restaurant surrounded by amazingly delicious food choices...it's hard for me to always choose the "grilled chicken" option.  For example next week I am going with some friends from out of town to Red Lobster...like I am not going to eat one or two of their amazing cheesy biscuits and some sort of seafood covered in butter... I only go there like twice a year and I am not going to just order the grilled chicken, that would not be any fun at all!  So friends, any ideas on how I can do better with staying within my points while eating out?

 The Ugly:
Well, at my work luncheon the other day I ate 3 desserts from Kneaders (they were however darn delicious and worth all 25 points).... I also had been craving a hamburger, for like a week and I finally broke down and went to the drive thru on one of my lunch breaks and got one of these babies... the Jr. Pastrami Burger....oh, it is like heaven, so tasty.  When people ask me what my hypothetical last meal would be it usually involves Crown Burger..although if it was my last meal I would order the Jr Crown.. but would go for the big one.. the full Crown, the heart attack in a bag.  Anyway, I digress.. I guess the good thing about my lunch date with Crown Burger would be that I recorded it in my daily points, even though I didn't want to (it's a lot of calories... and a ton of points) and I got back on track the next day.   
So there you have it friends.. my life for the past couple of weeks, well not everything about my life LOL... so thanks for following, and I always welcome any suggestions from readers or things you all have found successful in your weight loss journey. 
 
Thanks for following!

Monday, September 3, 2012

Pity Party for One...

Welcome to my "pity party for one" post..I think everyone has those days when they feel a little discouraged and throw themselves a "pity party for one".. so this blog is about my latest party...
For some reason I have been feeling a little discouraged this past week...yes, sometimes I get discouraged.. trust me, it is just as hard for me to admit this as it is for you all to believe it about me.. LOL.  Anyway, several things happened... I found out that a guy I had been talking to that I met online had recently been arrested then let out on bail and prior to that spent time in an Idaho prison, of course none of this was disclosed to me by him, I found it out by using my super duper investigation skills, and once I found out and called him on it I promptly cancelled my date and block him from ever contacting me again.... all I can say is good thing that I am a safety gal when it comes to online "dating" and do a bunch of online search to make sure they are not some sort of criminal... no matter how nice they come across or how innocent they look..my single lady friends, you NEED to do a search before you go out with them.. sorry, I digress... anyway the whole thing just left me kind of discouraged and disappointed... seriously, are there any good, honest, genuine, straight, faithful single men out there...I certainly have yet to meet any, sad but true.  To get over this discouragement I called on some of my favorite peeps to spend the weekend with....I had so much fun with each one of them and I was quickly reminded of how great my life is, and how lucky I am to be surrounded by friends who are filled with positivity, love and laughter.  I have a really blessed life..with or without a man and I started to feel a whole lot better... seriously, no party is fun when you are by yourself... and pity parties are NEVER fun... so I would much rather party it up with my peeps.

I was also feeling a little discouraged that despite tracking my food intake, not eating out for two weeks, and going to the gym my weight loss journey has been slow, very slow and it will probably continue to be slow considering that I have about 100 more pounds to lose..this is going to be a long, long, long journey... it seems like every time I have tried to lose weight in the past, I get to the exact same weight that I am at now, and I get discouraged about how much I have left to lose and I give up... and I don't want to give up this time.. Today when I was out with one of my fabulous friends we went out for lunch and I ordered a appetizer, entree and we split a dessert because I kind of had a "screw it all moment" and just ate what I wanted.  After eating all that food, it's not like it made me feel any better or less discouraged, I mostly just felt overly full and out of control with the eating.  In my mind I was also thinking about not going to the gym tonight... but then it happened.. the boost I needed.  While we were at the movie theater I ran into a friend of mine that I hadn't seen in about 3-4 months and one of the first things she said to me was "Camille you look like you have lost weight, have you".  Now this friend doesn't know anything about me and my blog, my desire to lose weight or even that I have been going to the gym... but she noticed!  Yay!  God bless Luisa for noticing and commenting on my efforts!  Seriously, I didn't think anyone could see a difference, including myself (although a lot of my clothes are even loser than they normally are).  That brief little interaction was all I needed to get me out of my "funk", and not only did I go to the gym, but I also packed my meals for the week and tracked all the food that I ate for the day...which was scary... basically I ate 80 weight watcher points today... I'm only supposed to eat 47 each day... but it doesn't matter, I tracked my food, went to the gym and prepared for the rest of the week...so I am back on track.. this "pity party for one" is OVER!  This is going to be a good week... I can feel it!