Welcome to my "pity party for one" post..I think everyone has those days when they feel a little discouraged and throw themselves a "pity party for one".. so this blog is about my latest party...I was also feeling a little discouraged that despite tracking my food intake, not eating out for two weeks, and going to the gym my weight loss journey has been slow, very slow and it will probably continue to be slow considering that I have about 100 more pounds to lose..this is going to be a long, long, long journey... it seems like every time I have tried to lose weight in the past, I get to the exact same weight that I am at now, and I get discouraged about how much I have left to lose and I give up... and I don't want to give up this time.. Today when I was out with one of my fabulous friends we went out for lunch and I ordered a appetizer, entree and we split a dessert because I kind of had a "screw it all moment" and just ate what I wanted. After eating all that food, it's not like it made me feel any better or less discouraged, I mostly just felt overly full and out of control with the eating. In my mind I was also thinking about not going to the gym tonight... but then it happened.. the boost I needed. While we were at the movie theater I ran into a friend of mine that I hadn't seen in about 3-4 months and one of the first things she said to me was "Camille you look like you have lost weight, have you". Now this friend doesn't know anything about me and my blog, my desire to lose weight or even that I have been going to the gym... but she noticed! Yay! God bless Luisa for noticing and commenting on my efforts! Seriously, I didn't think anyone could see a difference, including myself (although a lot of my clothes are even loser than they normally are). That brief little interaction was all I needed to get me out of my "funk", and not only did I go to the gym, but I also packed my meals for the week and tracked all the food that I ate for the day...which was scary... basically I ate 80 weight watcher points today... I'm only supposed to eat 47 each day... but it doesn't matter, I tracked my food, went to the gym and prepared for the rest of the week...so I am back on track.. this "pity party for one" is OVER! This is going to be a good week... I can feel it!
Girl, I love how open you are being on this blog. You can do it, Camille! The fact that you are so brave to write this shows that you really want a change and that you have the motivation.
ReplyDeleteI've stopped thinking about the long-term goal and instead focus on smaller, short-term goals. That number is less daunting for me.
Also, that part about the guy is literally the 4th story I've heard recently where someone found out something huge about the person they were either married to or dating. One found out he had a kid, another found out he'd served time for embezzlement, another found out he had a wife in Indonesia, and now this story. Man, background checks may become standard in my life if I hear anymore stories like this one!
Thanks Anica! I decided that if I was going have a blog about "real change", I better get "real" with my readers and try and open up more... Thanks for all of your encouragement... I definately need it! I also like the idea of focusing on smaller goals.. I have a 5% and 10% weight loss goal to focus on, but still... it's hard to not look at the big picture and get overwhelmed so your word of encouragement mean a lot! I love and miss you tons!
ReplyDeleteI love and miss you tons, too! Just think, if you keep going you will be a skinny-minny and you will thank yourself for not giving up. We can do this!
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